Pickles and Ice Cream

No, that is not what I am craving. Doesnt even sound remotely good. However, ice cream and french fries.. I kid. I chose the title because its a name of a book, a book I would love to get Logan, if I actually thought he would read it. I know he has been through the pregnancy with me two other times, but I know he doesnt fully understand what I go though to get to the prize at the end. A lot of women say "I wish a man could expirence pregnancy and labor, so they would know how I felt." I dont care so much about the labor part, but I do wish he could for a day, feel the emotions that I am going though. To feel how tired and drained I am, even if I actually get to sleep all night. To know how it feels to feel like you are going to puke all day long and the sight of food makes you want to gag. I understand I do not get up and go to work, where I lug around huge heavy tools, up and down ladders, working on huge equipment for 12 hours.. But at least his job ends in 12 hours. Mine is a 24 hour job and there is no break. Even on his days`of I am still working, up at all hours of the night because Ellie wont sleep and then still have to get up in the morning when Garrett is ready to get up. Oh well, things never change.

In my pregnancy week by week book there are "Tips for Dad" and I have to laugh when I read them. They are simple things like "Give your partner a break, cook her favorite meal" or "give her a break and vaccum and help clean." Cant see that happening.

I guess I just wish I had one of those husbands that pampered his wife while she is pregnant. All the questions of how you are feeling, have you been sick, do your feet/back hurt, etc.... I very very very rarely hear the question "how are you feeling." I just wish he verbally thought of me more. I say verbally because I know he cares, I know he loves me, I know he has concerned about the pregnancy, he just has issues showing it.

Earlier I was thinking, "I cant wait till Easter weekend." Janessa, the kids and my self are going to my parent's house for a few days. We are going to go to Tucson to the Pima Co fair, do some shopping, girl time. Then Easter with just my parents and grand mother. I was thinking that I cant wait for the break. However, I really wont be getting a break because Ill still have the kids. Guess its more like a vacation more then a break. I havent seen my parents since Christmas, so I really am looking forward to that part.

I did take a couple of pictures of the kids today, but dont have the energy to get up and get the camera to upload the pictures. Tomorrow perhaps. Tomorrow is walk and then lunch with Janessa. Logan is going to our house in Chino to finish up cleaning it and getting it ready for our new renter. Both kids took late naps, but Garrett still seems ready to go down. I sure hope so.